Unsent Letters

Dedication: This is to all the women out there. You put up with us, you take care of us, and still manage to love us for all our faults. This is for those women who don't settle for second-rate attention. For all those who want that 'romantic' in your life. They're out there. Give those guys who are quiet a chance... they may yet surprise you. -Mark

Buffy sat in physics class. It was something she would do, compared to, say, self-dental work or slaughtering a horde of Mohra demons. Her forehead wrinkled as a faint memory passed through her mind of a Mohra demon, but she couldn’t place it. She sighed, and decided to try and focus on the professor.

“Now if you’ll turn to page 205…” he droned on at the podium of the lecture hall. Must all teachers be like that? Buffy flipped her book open and it came to rest on page 157. There was a letter in it, and she picked it up, puzzled. She recognized the familiar handwriting on the front… Angel.

He had just gone back to LA late last night, with a promise to see her again this upcoming weekend. When did he do this? She smiled to herself as she thought about him and his kindness. Such a gentle, thoughtful soul… She felt remorseful for a moment about how things have happened, but she knew in her heart of hearts that she loved him. That was all that mattered. She read the letter in anticipation.

My sweet, sweet Buffy:

As I leave you to go back to LA, I have to take a few moments to explain to you a few things. A while back, something happened to me. You were there. I became human again. We had it all… the love, the caring, the gentle and still passionate love that we both have wanted for so long.

But it seems that in my life, darkness follows. I was turned into a thing of evil many years ago. But it seems that this same thing of evil is what caused us to be together. For our being brought together, I give thanks.

Because of this darkness, I chose to return to this state I was in. A demon with a soul. A vampire. Why? Because I love you now, more than ever. That never stopped when I left you before, it has never stopped, and it never will stop.

I realize you are a big girl… I guess I should say, woman. A beautiful woman. I know I can’t always ‘protect’ you. But I still try. I still watch. And I guess I always will. I’ve watched you mature from a novice teenager to a death-defying woman. You are the person I admire most in the world.

Finding you brought me back from the dead. Twice. I was dead, inside and out, but Whistler showed me you that day at your school, and I lived again. Then, after the time I went to Hell, I came back. Something brought me back, but it was for you that I made my personal journey from madness to sanity. You are, and have always been, my touchstone.

I am deeply in love with you.

Do one thing for me… it brings tears to my eyes every time.

Tell me you love me.

Yours for eternity,

Angel